I am Sad.

I am Sad.
Sad in Brain.

That Sad-in-Brain.
That Sad-in-Brain!
I do not like
that Sad-in-Brain

Do you like
gray fogs and rain?

I do not like them,
Sad-in-Brain.
I do not like
gray fogs and rain.

Would you like them
Here or there?

I would not like them
here or there.
I would not like them
anywhere.
I do not like
gray fogs and rain.
I do not like them,
Sad-in-Brain.

Would you like them
in a house?
Would you like them
with a mouse?

I do not like them
in a house.
I do not like them
with a mouse.
I do not like them
here or there.
I do not like them
anywhere.
I do not like gray fogs and rain.
I do not like them, Sad-in-Brain.

Would you like them
in a box?
Would you like them
with a fox?

Not in a box.
Not with a fox.
Not in a house.
Not with a mouse.
I would not like them here or there.
I would not like them anywhere.
I would not like gray fogs and rain.
I do not like them, Sad-in-Brain.

Would you? Could you?
in a car?
Like them! Like them!
Here they are.

I would not,
could not,
in a car

You may like them.
You will see.
You may like them
in a tree?
I would not, could not in a tree.
Not in a car! You let me be.

I do not like them in a box.
I do not like them with a fox
I do not like them in a house
I do not like them with a mouse
I do not like them here or there.
I do not like them anywhere.
I do not like grey fogs and rain.
I do not like them, Sad-in-Brain.

A train! A train!
A train! A train!
Could you, would you
on a train?

Not on a train! Not in a tree!
Not in a car! Sad! Let me be!
I would not, could not, in a box.
I could not, would not, with a fox.
I will not like them with a mouse
I will not like them in a house.
I will not like them here or there.
I will not like them anywhere.
I do not like them, Sad-in-Brain.

Say!
In the dark?
Here in the dark!
Would you, could you, in the dark?

I would not, could not,
in the dark.

Would you, could you,
on a crane?

I would not, could not, on a crane.
Not in the dark. Not on a train,
Not in a car, Not in a tree.
I do not like them, Sad, you see.
Not in a house. Not in a box.
Not with a mouse. Not with a fox.
I will not like them here or there.
I do not like them anywhere!

You do not like
gray fogs and rain?

I do not
like them,
Sad-in-Brain.

Could you, would you,
with a goat?

I would not,
could not.
with a goat!

Would you, could you,
on a boat?

I could not, would not, on a boat.
I will not, will not, with a goat.
I will not like them on a crane.
I will not like them on a train.
Not in the dark! Not in a tree!
Not in a car! You let me be!
I do not like them in a box.
I do not like them with a fox.
I will not like them in a house.
I do not like them with a mouse.
I do not like them here or there.
I do not like them ANYWHERE!

I do not like
gray fogs
and rain!

I do not like them,
Sad-in-Brain.

You do not like them.
SO you say.
Try them! Try them!
And you may.
Try them, and you may I say.

Sad!
If you will let me be,
I will try them.
You will see.

Say!
I still don’t like grey fogs and rain!
I don’t! I hate them, Sad-in-Brain!
And I would hate them in a boat!
And I would hate them with a goat...
And I will hate them on a crane.
And in the dark. And on a train.
And in a car. And in a tree.
They are so bad, so cold, you see!

So I will hate them in a box.
And I will hate them with a fox.
And I will hate them in a house.
And I will hate them with a mouse.
And I will hate them here and there.
Say! I will hate them ANYWHERE!

I do so hate
gray fogs and rain!
Fuck you!
Fuck you,
Sad-in-Brain.

#actuallyAutistic #LivingWithLongCovid #seasonalDepression