I strongly suspect that i may be #aspie / #autistic...
...cus my grandma and possibly my mother are...
...because i talked like young sheldon in grade school...
...because fuckers keep telling me that they do not understand me, they don't get what i'm telling them when i make it so abundantly clear! and then i turn out to be right in the end??? annnoying i feel like cassandra from greek myth
...because i can get pretty damn overstimulated in hostile crowds (like mall-goers as opposed to festival-goers) or supermarkets
...because i have an obsession with radical honesty, and i get very mad if i am lied to or decieved because "i just wanted to be polite" FUCK OFF, HOW AM I MEANT TO REPROGRAM MY BEHAVIOUR TO ACCOUNT FOR YOU?
...because i have a degree of executive dysfunction and have pursued an adhd diagnosis in the past
...because i have had intrusive thoughts that made me want to k/ms, which is a comorbidity
...because i have my special interest programming, at which i do excel at times
...because i always self-reflect and refract a thousand times over, it's crazy and never ending
...because when someone raises a "big" interpersonal issue w/ me and then leaves for the weekend i CAN't let it go and my weekend is ruined because i intrusively obsess over it and SHEME endlessly...
...because i highly relate to Masking as a concept, and interactions with others require my concentration
But on the other hand:
I am a pretty confident, promising young man with a spring in his step and a bright future.
Not sure "man" is entirely accurate and i fear my gender and sexuality are of fractal nature that yearns to be expressed but can't be
But i am usually extroverted, goated at presentations, writing, theatre and making people like me (sometimes)
Soooo...
Some of the autism symptoms don't really apply because i have MECHANISMS
Which some folks appear not to have aquired through their respective experience
I also feel like i have a lot of empathy! And i feel strongly!
"Lack of empathy" is actually soo unrelatable
I got ALL you idiots simulated on my minds holodeck, and i DO feel along very strongly (with a less than passable accuracy that is augumented by good decision making heuristics, such as "assume the best" and "disregard percieved insults, chances are they didn't mean it , even if they did, reacting sincerely pulls their teeth" and "DONT FLIRT. NOT WITHOUT A CONTRACT FORMALISING THE WISHES, EXPECTATIONS, BOUNDRIES AND INSURANCES THEY HAVE FOR ME. DON'T DO IT.")
There are still many unrelatable things you guys talk about
What the fuck is going on pls help.
Should i pursue a diagnosis? Even if i've just tried to get ADHD a few months ago and obviously that wasn't entirely accurate? Am i embarassing myself
Chat is this real, what should i do guys
@actuallyautistic@a.gup.pe@autism@lemmy.world
...cus my grandma and possibly my mother are...
...because i talked like young sheldon in grade school...
...because fuckers keep telling me that they do not understand me, they don't get what i'm telling them when i make it so abundantly clear! and then i turn out to be right in the end??? annnoying i feel like cassandra from greek myth
...because i can get pretty damn overstimulated in hostile crowds (like mall-goers as opposed to festival-goers) or supermarkets
...because i have an obsession with radical honesty, and i get very mad if i am lied to or decieved because "i just wanted to be polite" FUCK OFF, HOW AM I MEANT TO REPROGRAM MY BEHAVIOUR TO ACCOUNT FOR YOU?
...because i have a degree of executive dysfunction and have pursued an adhd diagnosis in the past
...because i have had intrusive thoughts that made me want to k/ms, which is a comorbidity
...because i have my special interest programming, at which i do excel at times
...because i always self-reflect and refract a thousand times over, it's crazy and never ending
...because when someone raises a "big" interpersonal issue w/ me and then leaves for the weekend i CAN't let it go and my weekend is ruined because i intrusively obsess over it and SHEME endlessly...
...because i highly relate to Masking as a concept, and interactions with others require my concentration
But on the other hand:
I am a pretty confident, promising young man with a spring in his step and a bright future.
Not sure "man" is entirely accurate and i fear my gender and sexuality are of fractal nature that yearns to be expressed but can't be
But i am usually extroverted, goated at presentations, writing, theatre and making people like me (sometimes)
Soooo...
Some of the autism symptoms don't really apply because i have MECHANISMS
Which some folks appear not to have aquired through their respective experience
I also feel like i have a lot of empathy! And i feel strongly!
"Lack of empathy" is actually soo unrelatable
I got ALL you idiots simulated on my minds holodeck, and i DO feel along very strongly (with a less than passable accuracy that is augumented by good decision making heuristics, such as "assume the best" and "disregard percieved insults, chances are they didn't mean it , even if they did, reacting sincerely pulls their teeth" and "DONT FLIRT. NOT WITHOUT A CONTRACT FORMALISING THE WISHES, EXPECTATIONS, BOUNDRIES AND INSURANCES THEY HAVE FOR ME. DON'T DO IT.")
There are still many unrelatable things you guys talk about
What the fuck is going on pls help.
Should i pursue a diagnosis? Even if i've just tried to get ADHD a few months ago and obviously that wasn't entirely accurate? Am i embarassing myself
Chat is this real, what should i do guys
@actuallyautistic@a.gup.pe@autism@lemmy.world
Kevin Davy •
Being autistic isn't a one size fits all, thing. We all present in different ways, have different strengths and weaknesses. And yes, we can definitely have empathy, in many cases far, far too much empathy. The idea that we can't was the brain fart of a so-called expert on us, who has subsequently backtracked and admitted that it was a load of bollocks, under the withering storm of anger his stupidity invoked. But, not without doing a great deal of harm first.
It's worth noting that many autistics, possibly somewhere near 60 odd %, also have adhd. Despite the fact that this was thought to be impossible until very recently. The interaction of them can, though, act to mask one or the other, and certainly subtly affects the presentation of them until they can seem not quite right. It's also worth noting that if you do get an adhd diagnosis, also getting an autism one won't get you anything more than the adhd one does. In fact, adhd diagnoses tend to come with a lot less stigma than autism ones. So, you might not want to rush into trying to get an official diagnosis.
The main thing is, keep looking into it. Even if, in the end, you don't feel that it is a good fit, you'll still have learnt much and possibly many things that you can still use to make your life easier.
In case it helps, there is a post of mine about this pinned on my profile.
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