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I’m out of practice interacting with strangers. My friends know me, and it’s ok to be awkward and talk a lot sometimes . I keep forgetting that new people don’t want to know 😝 Felt this all day while I was out at meetings getting my coffee stand equipment. My first market is 10 Jan.
Strangers make peopling difficult.😒
Oh no, absolutely not! I deliberately never bought a webcam for pooter, & never use any video crap on phone. The whole deal for me, the heart of my depression & social phobia, is my #FailedTransition, thus i hide away so i never need to endure the emotional agony again of seeing peeps' trying to mask their native initial reactions. If i could Zoom, i would not need to Zoom.
Ironically, given i have now hermitted since 2010 [transition 2004-2006, tried really hard to be brave & out 2007-2009, gave up end-2009], i am acutely aware that my combined depression & social phobia seem to have triggered a kind of agoraphobia, coz now those rare times when leaving the house is unavoidable [by which i do not mean going into town, catching pub transport or any other "normal" stuff, i mean innocuous stuff like checking letterbox, doing compost bin etc] before night's darkness, i react viscerally with much tension & nervousness, clammy skin, & general patheticality, which only recedes again once back inside. It is utterly ridiculous.

Anyway, sorry, i did not mean to steal yet another thread, so i'm shutting up now.